Ammunition

Ok, so finals week is pretty much the most torturing, and painful, and stressful week of the entire school year! Right? yeah! So on my first day of finals I have French 2 final (200 QUESTIONS LONG!), and photography (which is about a bunch of stuff that we never learned in class!). Day 2 I have Foods (which you wouldn’t think would be hard, but it was all about mearsuring, and ‘calories per gram’, and vitamins, ect. so it was hard), Biology (I was really worried about this one, because it would decide whether or not I got to do anything fun this summer if you know what I mean) and Geometry (I;m good at math It just took a long time.) In my geometry final we had to write a letter to a troop over in Iraq. My geometry teacher Mr.Lake said thaat he read mine, and it was the best one he’d read of that day! and that mine was going on top of the stack (which is a big deal ). Day 3 I had English (it’s all about poetry so I knew it) and honors American Government (ouch the title sounds harsh, but it acctually wasn’t that bad [but then again, I acctually studied for this one. lol]) So, yeah finals was hard and painful, but even though I wanted summer to start and finals to end, I still wanted the week to slow down, so I could be with my friends longer. I’m gonna miss them, and you know that my friends from school really have no lives so, they’ll never try to get together with anyone else. haha. so finals (avoid at all cost) should have a warning with it: “Warning: May cause brain failure, brain black outs, harsh attitudes, and other unpleasent symptoms. TAKE AT YOUR OWN RISK!”

Earlier, just a few minutes ago acctually, I let out every feeling that I’ve been keeping inside, through a post. I canceled to post, because it’d probably make everyone deppressed, and that just by typing it out, I felt so much better. (*takes deep breath*) Have you ever just let your feelings out by speaking them to yourself, or writing/typing them? Have you noticed how much better you feel afterwards? My canceled post was about how I don’t let anyone get to know me well enough to tell them anything, and that the three that I did let that happen to, I’ve lost. But by just typing a two page long essay, of my own, I felt so much better! Have you ever expressed your self in a way that you were really proud of, or made you feel so much better afterwards?

I wrote a speech on this and could go on for hours, but I’m curious on what you think about life. ‘I think that as people sometimes we live in an alternate reality, and it seems like we’re watching the world go by, and that everyone else will eventually die, but we can’t because we’re just observing. We know deep down that we’ll die someday, but we aren’t keeping true to that. 

     We’re part of a plan that is so much bigger then us. We all have a role, and that includes influencing others.’ I wrote my speech with the theme, ‘If you died tomorrow, would you be satisfied?’ ‘And even I said, “No” to begin with, but as I thought about it, I realized all of the good things that I’ve done. I know that I’ve helped someone when they needed it, I know that I’ve been inspired more then once, and I know that I’ve loved, and been loved.

      And I thought that I’ve played a big part in life. For how many people I know, or know me. And if I ever think that no one will miss me if I died, I’d be wrong, and I know that. I now realize that I’m very satisfied with the possitive things that I’ve done. I’ll always wish that I could go back to change something at sometime, but I’m very happy with what good I’ve done.’ This is only a small portion of my speech, and The whole speech has yet to be heard, but now I want you all to tell me what your take on life is. What is Life to you?

When people change and it just never feels the same…I feel lonely. It seems like something’s just, missing. It happened just recently. My friend changed. It’s not as easy to talk to him, he doesn’t seem as enthusiastic, and I feel like I don’t even know him anymore. It feels like I’m loosing yet another friend. When people change sometimes it’s for the better, though….but I can’t see that this time. He’s still my friend, but he’s a stranger now. What do you do when someone changes, or moves away?